Something new and different for us

So I don't really even know how to begin this thing or how to explain. So I'll start back on this past Monday.
I was 18 weeks and 3 days along on Monday and we were thinking Bradley was gonna go back on the road and work on some more power plants. I really wanted to find out before he left what we were going to have, so I talked to my doctor and she made an exception to let us find out what we were going to have that day.
We went in the ultra sound room and found out that we are going to have a little girl. Which was good. We really didn't care what we were having since we have both, boy and girl.
Anyways she got done with the ultra sound and said just a second and I'll see if she needs anything else. Dr. Meents (my doctor) then comes in and sits down with us and tells us "the reason I'm in here is we found some problems wrong with you baby."
My heart sunk and I could just feel my face turning red. In simple words She told us that some of her organs were growing on the outside of her and there was some fluid on her brain. I broke down crying uncontrollably and thank goodness Bradley was there to comfort me. She told us we needed to go see a specialist in Springfield to tell us more about the problem though. So we went home not knowing exactly what was going on. She did tell us it could be life threatening or she could have birth defect but we just wont know until we see someone else.
I went home and got a blessing from my dad and Bradley that afternoon and felt tons better and comforted. And we also had a good Family home evening with my family on special children and how miracles do happen. And we listened to a talk at the last priesthood session by Elder Oaks.

So today Wednesday we headed to Springfield hoping for the best. We got there and everyone was so nice to us and we finally got another ultra sound that took forever. Both me and Bradley were going to sleep. Then the doctor, Dr. Dix came in and looked a little bit at the ultra sound and then we went in her office to talk with her.
So to make another long story short she told us that
1.Our babies intestines were growing outside of her body and would definitely need surgery and
2. That the left side of her brain was bigger than the right.
She gave some medical terms for all of this but she gave us so much info today I can't remember the terms used.
I was so confused and had no idea what she was even telling us so she had to explain it again a second time.
She told us if the baby has an extra chromosome 18 that there is no way we can save this baby. I will carry the baby possibly to full term knowing this baby wont live but maybe 1 day. She asked if this was the case would we want to abort the baby? I told her that is not an option for us.
Knowing that even if this baby lived for a second she would gain her body here on earth and that's all she needed.
She told us that they needed to do some testing on me and take fluid from inside the placenta to find out if the baby did have this extra chromosome. If the baby didn't have this extra chromosome we would have to deliver in St. Louis at a special hospital. Dr. Dix also told us this baby has a 1 in 3 chance of having this extra chromosome because of her enlarged brain.

So this is totally something new for our family and I never ever would have thought something like this would happen. It scary and sad and confusing all at the same time. I know if I didn't have the two kids I have this would be so much more challenging. I have come to appreciate them more over these past few days and realize just how special they are.
We find out in two weeks if this baby will live or not so in the mean time all I can do is pray and have faith everything will turn out.

So I'll end on a cute note:
Today Bradley took Payson with him to go and weld something and while they were driving Payson asked Bradley if the baby had come out yet? Bradley told him "no not yet, but when the baby does come the baby might not get to come home with us because she is really sick.
The baby might go back home and live with Heavenly Father."
Then Bradley asked, don't you think the baby would like that?
Payson said Yeah.
Then Bradley said Ya and then Jesus could hold our baby in his arms. Do you think the baby would like that?
Payson said Yeah. and then paused a little moment thinking and asked
"When is Jesus gonna hold me?"
Bradley just told Payons well hopefully not for a while buddy.
I love that, he is such a sweet little guy!!